I can walk through the halls of my school and say “hi” to just about every single person there… but what’s the point when I feel like I don’t really have anyone I can talk to. Just a lot of empty hello’s and fake smiles.
I wonder what death is like… I’d imagine it’s something stunningly beautiful where it hurts for a moment, but then it’s like every weight you’ve ever felt is suddenly lifted…
This is a very selfish thing to say, but it’s true. I just really want someone else that wants me around. That enjoys my company, instead of just tolerates it. I’m sick and tired of going places where I feel as if everyone is annoyed with me and only lets me there because it’s “nice”. But I’m not good enough. My looks? Shit. My personality? Shit. Every single aspect of my worthless being? Shit shit shitty shit. Why would anyone want me around?
Not best friends. At all. In fact, fuck him. He’s annoying and (at least in this situation) a selfish bastard with no regard for how he affects anyone else. Besides, it’s not like he needs me as a friend. He easily found new friends already while I sit here with no friends and nothing to do. AWESOME! :D
Haven’t been in my ask in awhile… but idk… I just did. I can’t control it. What’s important is that I don’t right now. Or at least I’m trying not to…